Oh man, I suggest you research what scholars think actually is true about what you just said. Just for a start - there is virtually no scholar today who thinks John the disciple of Jesus wrote the Gospel of John, who was different from the John who wrote the Revelation, who was different from the author of the Johnine epistles. I would also say that understanding the actual history of these texts and where they came from will bring you to a deeper, more lasting faith. What you’ve regurgitated is basically church tradition that has no basis in fact.